Day One

So today was the first day of my most recent attempt to lose some weight. I have had a weight problem since I was a kid, so this is by mo means unfamiliar territory for me. You name the diet, I have tried it. I went on my first diet when I was 11, so I have spent more than half my life up until this point trying to lose weight. Being fat totally sucks donkey balls, its very difficult feeling like you are living in a shell that you want to break out of. People are shitty and being fat makes people pre-judge your capabilities without even knowing you. I have accomplished a lot for myself I own a home, graduated college, have a good job, no major issues..etc. EXCEPT I'm a fatty so that always overshadows anything I have accomplished or will accomplish in the future. There are many days when I get so disgusted and fed up with life, because I know I will never fully have a life until I lose this weight. I have a significant amount of weight to lose to, I'm talking like 100 lbs, if not more. So there is no way this going to be solved, by doing NutriSystem, or some other ridiculous thing for two months. I have to totally change my life. I don’t do well with failure; in fact weight loss is probably the only thing I have ever failed at. I am so ambitious in every other area of my life except here, and I don’t know why.

So today was a good day, I went for a two mile walk with my Mom, so far I’m off to a good start, let’s see where the next days, weeks, and months take me.