Its been a LONG time since I have posted anything, but I have been doing pretty well with my weight loss. As of today I am down 72.8 pounds! YAY!! I think starting out I really didn’t realize how many of my personal demons I would need to confront on a daily basis. I struggle with emotional eating. I never really wanted to admit that to myself, but the reality is I am a closet binge eater. This may come as surprise to those of you who know me, those of you who have had a meal with me, because I never overindulge…in public.
When I started WW in June 2006, I thought to myself that I probably won’t lose much weight, because diets don’t work. The reason diets don’t work for me is because no matter what diet I was on, I would always binge in secrecy. Its taken me a long time to own up to this problem, because I try so hard to make my life look perfect and orderly. I am an incredibly focused and driven person, and for me admitting hat I essentially have an eating disorder flies in the face of the ‘perfect persona’ that I am trying to establish for myself. Big news no one is perfect, so by not pretending to be perfect I have allowed myself to finally make positive progress.
I haven’t posted I a very long while, because from the first day I started this blog, I wanted to be a place where I came to be accountable, to provide full disclosure, even if only my three friends read it, the Internet is public. By saying on my blog, I am a binge eater, I have in my mind essentially told the world. There's no going back now.
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