Stop what you are doing, and note the time and date, becasue I have a NEWS FLASH. I feel pretty today. I know I'm shocked to.
Seriously though, I spent a good part of the weekend thinking about all the things I should be happy about. I have admittedly hit a stall out point; I haven’t lost any weight since June. I don’t feel bad about this, but people around me keep reminding me that I still have weight to lose. No shit, I will always have weight to lose, I’m a woman. There is encouragement, and then there is judgment: commenting on what I’m eating, and why I shouldn’t be eating it, and asking why I don’t go to the gym 6 days a week anymore. None of your effin business that's why. I still exercise 3 to 4 times a week, but did anyone think I could maintain that previous level of exercising indefinitely? My body was starting to tell me to chill out. (i.e.; the chronic fatigue and muscle soreness, skin problems for the first time ever in my life, and hair loss, you heard me HAIR LOSS) Yeah, all the shitty stuff you don’t hear about excessive exercise.
The bottom line is I want to be happy.
I was not happy when I was 80 lbs heavier, and I’m happier now that I’m 80 lbs lighter. Will I be even happier if I lose and additional 10, 20, 30 or 40 more pounds, probably, but it’s not a guarantee. I’m starting to figure out that I didn’t really like myself too much when I started my weight loss journey, and today, I don’t know if I truly like myself anymore than I did a year ago.
Losing weight isn’t a magic fix it all. I wish someone would have told me that 14 months ago. So maybe the next change that needs to take place is from the inside out. There’s an amazing concept.
Seriously though, I spent a good part of the weekend thinking about all the things I should be happy about. I have admittedly hit a stall out point; I haven’t lost any weight since June. I don’t feel bad about this, but people around me keep reminding me that I still have weight to lose. No shit, I will always have weight to lose, I’m a woman. There is encouragement, and then there is judgment: commenting on what I’m eating, and why I shouldn’t be eating it, and asking why I don’t go to the gym 6 days a week anymore. None of your effin business that's why. I still exercise 3 to 4 times a week, but did anyone think I could maintain that previous level of exercising indefinitely? My body was starting to tell me to chill out. (i.e.; the chronic fatigue and muscle soreness, skin problems for the first time ever in my life, and hair loss, you heard me HAIR LOSS) Yeah, all the shitty stuff you don’t hear about excessive exercise.
The bottom line is I want to be happy.
I was not happy when I was 80 lbs heavier, and I’m happier now that I’m 80 lbs lighter. Will I be even happier if I lose and additional 10, 20, 30 or 40 more pounds, probably, but it’s not a guarantee. I’m starting to figure out that I didn’t really like myself too much when I started my weight loss journey, and today, I don’t know if I truly like myself anymore than I did a year ago.
Losing weight isn’t a magic fix it all. I wish someone would have told me that 14 months ago. So maybe the next change that needs to take place is from the inside out. There’s an amazing concept.
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