What’s the payoff for you? People are ultimately concerned about their own self interests. As I dig myself out of the 60 day slump I have been in, I had to ask myself; what is the payoff for staying fat? On the surface, it appears to be a ridiculous question, there’s nothing cool about being a fat ass. Hey not so fast!
Fellas, and dudes and guys. Oh my!
During part of my lazy summer, that was filled with eating cheeseburgers & Nathan’s World Famous Hotdogs, not going to the gym that often and gaining a few pounds, I got more attention from the opposite sex than I have in a lifetime. Who would have thought after peeling back all the layers of fat, underneath was a pretty cute chick? I know I’m shocked too! A good friend of mine who is also my workout buddy (when I’m not being powerful lazy) posed a very shocking question to me last week. “Are you afraid of being thin?” Ha! Ha! Ha! I immediately responded. No such thing. That’s tantamount to being afraid of winning the lottery, or being afraid of having naturally perfect beautiful straight white teeth, or being afraid that the new job you just interviewed for will only offer you 40% more in salary than you requested. Basically not a legitimate fear.
Of course, like with most things, after I thought about it, I had to concede that maybe she had a point. Honestly, I don’t think I’m afraid of being thin, but I am only 40 pounds away from my goal, and I’m acting like I’m 400 pounds a way from it. Guess what? PEOPLE CAN SEE ME NOW!! Weight loss is kinda an oxymoron when you think about it, the smaller I get, the more visible I become!! Before losing weight I had these awesome fantasies of dating 3 or more guys at once, going out and partying all the time, really just reveling in the super hot chick I would ultimately become. When my fantasies started to become not so far fetched anymore (i.e., could turn into realties), I really didn’t want to live them. I totally chickened out.
Immediately I turned to “the internets” (hey, that’s how our President says it, and since I love America, I will say it the same way) and tried to find out how many Yahoo support groups existed for this debilitating disease of wanting to stay a giant fat ass. Seriously though, I did find some interesting articles regarding how losing substantial amounts of weight will force you to examine your own negative self image, self esteem issues, challenges, and changes you want to make in your life. This is essentially uncharted territory for me. I didn’t have the luxury of being thin at one time and then somehow just blowing up over the course of a lifetime, I have always been chubby, pleasing plump, and then just really fat. I have spent my whole life in some stage of “overweightness”.
The reason I want to stay fat is…
yeah couldn’t really come up with any reasons, because I have decided that there is no longer any payoff for me. I have decided that I will keep winning at losing.
Fellas, and dudes and guys. Oh my!
During part of my lazy summer, that was filled with eating cheeseburgers & Nathan’s World Famous Hotdogs, not going to the gym that often and gaining a few pounds, I got more attention from the opposite sex than I have in a lifetime. Who would have thought after peeling back all the layers of fat, underneath was a pretty cute chick? I know I’m shocked too! A good friend of mine who is also my workout buddy (when I’m not being powerful lazy) posed a very shocking question to me last week. “Are you afraid of being thin?” Ha! Ha! Ha! I immediately responded. No such thing. That’s tantamount to being afraid of winning the lottery, or being afraid of having naturally perfect beautiful straight white teeth, or being afraid that the new job you just interviewed for will only offer you 40% more in salary than you requested. Basically not a legitimate fear.
Of course, like with most things, after I thought about it, I had to concede that maybe she had a point. Honestly, I don’t think I’m afraid of being thin, but I am only 40 pounds away from my goal, and I’m acting like I’m 400 pounds a way from it. Guess what? PEOPLE CAN SEE ME NOW!! Weight loss is kinda an oxymoron when you think about it, the smaller I get, the more visible I become!! Before losing weight I had these awesome fantasies of dating 3 or more guys at once, going out and partying all the time, really just reveling in the super hot chick I would ultimately become. When my fantasies started to become not so far fetched anymore (i.e., could turn into realties), I really didn’t want to live them. I totally chickened out.
Immediately I turned to “the internets” (hey, that’s how our President says it, and since I love America, I will say it the same way) and tried to find out how many Yahoo support groups existed for this debilitating disease of wanting to stay a giant fat ass. Seriously though, I did find some interesting articles regarding how losing substantial amounts of weight will force you to examine your own negative self image, self esteem issues, challenges, and changes you want to make in your life. This is essentially uncharted territory for me. I didn’t have the luxury of being thin at one time and then somehow just blowing up over the course of a lifetime, I have always been chubby, pleasing plump, and then just really fat. I have spent my whole life in some stage of “overweightness”.
The reason I want to stay fat is…
yeah couldn’t really come up with any reasons, because I have decided that there is no longer any payoff for me. I have decided that I will keep winning at losing.
2 comments:
look, hottie, you know that your hotness will continue to soar and it is through that hotness that others will be
A. encouraged
B. turned on
C. intimidated
D. all of the above
keep going!! you are my inspiration...the wind beneath my post pregnancy wings!!!
You said you found articles about the fear of being thin. Could you forward them to me? I totally suffer from this.
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