I haven’t posted a blog in a very long time, the reason I started this blog, was to discuss my weight loss journey. After about 14 months of this I grew tired of fighting the weight loss battle, and having my entire life revolve around losing weight. At first it was great, I was very excited, and I did have GREAT results, I just became to unrealistic to keep the schedule I was maintaining.
I titled this post, “sometimes I feel like a fraud, because people are always making comments and giving me positive feedback about my weight loss, but in my mind, I know that I have really stopped trying. I haven’t stopped watching what I eat, but since June 2007 I have been gaining and losing the same 10 pounds over and over again, would I call that maintenance? I guess. I don’t secretly binge eat anymore, but I think about it all the time, which I guess is just part of dealing with addiction to anything, I’m not sure if you every are truly free of it, you just become more attune with your triggers and try to work through the times when you are tempted.
1 comments:
I hear you on the feelings of fraud. I've got them too, about all sorts of things...mothering, my work, being a human, etc. I'm always sort of waiting for people to discover that this was all a sham. I just keep trying to get that little voice that taunts me to shut up. One day, the day that I am found out, of course, I'll hear a really loud pop and I'll be able to exhale. Hmm, that sounds healthy, right?
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