2010: In Review

This year had many highs and lows but if I had to give the year a grade it would get strong C. The last 365 days were just average, but not great. I had some personal achievements this year but still not where I would like to be. I turned 30 this year. Milestone birthdays lend themselves to self evaluation. As I started going through the arbitrary checklist I created I was less than pleased with the results. Since I was a student for part of the year I used a letter grading system.

Professional: C+

I completed graduate school in May of this year. I was actually extremely proud of myself, and honestly thought it would lead to more/better job opportunities. Okay I have an MBA, my life is about to….STAY EXACTLY THE SAME. However, the 2010 job market has been less than promising. Many people lost their jobs this year, so I know I am fortunate. None of my attempts to find new opportunities led to anything. I am attempting to remain positive, but I get very worried about my future, since at some point I want to enjoy my work. Throughout the year I would have these outlandish thoughts about starting my own business, or becoming a professional comedy writer. Then I realized all this overwhelming disappointment has stolen my funny right out of my brain. It’s gone. For real.

Personal: D-

My stupid, stupid weight. I swear to God I have lost at least 250 pounds in my lifetime…..and then promptly gained it all back. Seriously, I lost 80 pounds a few years ago and gained back 40. However, this is to be expected since I have refused to deal with the emotional issues that cause me to eat so damn much. Wait, I don’t just really LOVE pizza and gummy bears?!? Mental note for 2011, try therapy.

Also dating. What’s that? Sometimes I get nervous that I will never find a husband and may not be able to move to the next step. In this sense I feel emotionally immature. There is a certain amount of “legitimate adult” that goes along with marriage and the whole bit. At this point, I might just marry the next dude that tries to holla at me when I am at Lowes (that seems to be the only place men approach me in public). I know that’s weird, but maybe there is just something super crazy sexy about a woman buying paint or air filters.

This year I did quite a bit or reading and researching about my personality type. Why? Mostly because I don’t feel normal. Research findings…I am an Introvert. An EXTERME introvert. That was not shocking, but it makes me understand why it is so difficult for me to make new friends. Everyone in my family and ALL of my friends (albeit a short list) are extroverts. It also makes me understand why I want to punch people in the face who tell me to “get out there more”. Stupid extroverts. Awww snap, was that you funny?!? It makes brief appearances every now and again. I am currently reading several books and will elaborate more on my personality more in a later post. Riveting, huh? I figure these little teasers could boost my blog hits up into double digits!

Okay that is all. Looking forward to better everything in 2011.